dental guilt

As most of you may be aware, I am one of the braces wearing elite, however something you may not be aware of is that I was actually not born wearing braces, though given the length of time I have had then on, you can be forgiven for thinking otherwise. In truth these braces were placed there by mere mortal man (woman) and some day may even be removed, alowing me to once again dine on bok choi with out fear of choking to death (if this confuses you then you've obviousley never had laksa with braces) but this dream can only come true provided I put in a little effort and actually turn up to my dentist apointments this time. Yesterday was my first appointment this year as well as being my first apointment IN a year, which clearly hasn't helped my progress, and not surprisingly the dentist wasnt to impressed with my 1 year break from aural hygiene. From the moment I walked in the front door I could feel their eyes, judging me, from the lady at the front desk to the dental assistants collecting patients, my mind running with paranoid thoughts about internal memo's warning all staff about the guy who thinks he's to good to go to the dentist "attention all staff, please be aware that a patient by the name of mattiaf morelos (they always spell it wrong) will be coming in for an apointment today, mr morelos has decided to return to us after evadeing us for over 12 months now, choosing not not care his teeth but rather jeopordise his eternal smile with an unhealthy life style of coffee, cigarettes, candy and class 1 narcotics no doubt. Please make sure this patient is given no special treatment, and if you have anything you would like to throw please do so. And finally the weekly dental hospital bingo night is postponed this week due to an internal outbreak of herpes, all hail lord dentalor!" finally my name is called and I get up to walk the long walk of shame

on a side note

Over the last month and a half I have taken up jogging, well more walking at first but gradually working my way up to long distance running over the past couple of weeks, I might go into more detail later, but it just occured to me that perhaps one of the reasons im enjoying it so much is because when im jogging the only thoughts going through my head are "man my legs hurt" and "damn im thirsty"... its nice to have a break from questioning the complexitys of the universe for just 45 mins 2 times a week...

The very first

So its 1am thursday morning, and I'm lying in bed wide awake, like most nights, a thousands thoughts running through my head, a thousand questions, a thousand what if's and why's, all keeping me up as though ill somehow come up with the answers of the world while trying to find that perfect sleeping position, that perhaps I should keep thinking about it in the hopes I'll solve all my problems any second now.

I wish I could make it stop but the mind just keeps on ticking, through the night often waking me up through the early hours to continue thoughts that have no answer....

So this is my first blog (here) so I guess I should start with a little introduction to the page. I've set up this page in an attempt to silence those endless thoughts, those endless questions that follow me throughout the days and into the nights, to write them all down in an attempt to achieve some sort of clarity, as well as having a good ol' bitch along the way, becuase I know "my readers" do love it so.

Apologies in advance for disgraceful grammer, spelling, punctuation and layout, but ill be writing most of these from my hiptop which is not exactly made for publishing, I will try to correct from time to time for ease of viewing, however I won't make to many corrections as I feel the truth is always in the first draft and any corrections are just a denial of our true selves.

I will also have a flickr site in conjunction with this one, to which I will try to upload photos of my life as they are happening, straight from my phone.

We shall see how my little 'cybersocial' experiment goes sharing my life with the online community, qand more importantly how my phones battery copes. Bye for now